Aisy Urie
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We got back our prelim results today. OMG before that, my mind was in a very unstable condition. NERVOUS, TENSE, CLAMMY HANDS, FAST-BEATING HEART, ANXIOUS, FRETFUL, NEUROTIC, PARANOID, argh!!! Ok so how did i well did i perform? Haiz.. Right now i'm all mixed emotions. Partly depressed and partly satisfied. So how did i do? Well, i'm extremely glad i aced my E-math. I was really praying hard for that. But I kinda underperformed for Eng, HMT, and SS. Haiz i B-ed them ( lmao got such word meh? ). And fyi it wasn't a good B. Oh well, i'm now really counting on my Geo to pull up my grades. I really hope i can ace it. *prays again* God-willing i can. Anyway, tomorrow i'll get back the rest of my results, A-math, Geo, Chem, Phy, Lit. ERGH, nerve-wrecking sia. But what i can really do now is of course to pray and pray and pray, and wait what tomorrow holds. *chills running down my spine* So before i go as usual, a quote to chew on: Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish.

Today we had career talks that were really an eye-opener for me. I mean it may sound very early to decide a career, but the revelation definitely affected how i feel and totally changed my mindset. I'm sixteen and being a teenager is NOT easy at all. Yes it sounds normal, but hell yeah i really mean it. Times changed and the people are just so ZEALOUS and OBSSESS that they CONSTANTLY want to be on top. Things in life are just so erratic. You dont exactly know what may happen tomorrow. That's why you see people going all "KIASU", making sure that they have EVERYTHING just "in case" something doesnt work out. They can then depend on the other stuff that they are working on. What do i mean? Ok here's an analogy. In most of the top schools, you'll see pupils being offered like 8 or 9 or even 10 subjects. But how many do you actually need to score for your O levels? 6! Only 6! I know i'm being all pessimistic and negative. Haiz. Ok and some may say that it is actually good that pupils are taking more than 6 subjects because they can expand themselves and really push themselves far. But seriously, dont you see that this is all just an apprehension. Ok hit me in the head if you want to, but i'm just penning down my thoughts. I mean generally people are just so unsure and so insecure about what they REALLY want to do, they just do EVERYTHING! "In case" one fails in a subject, there would be other subjects for him/her to fall back on. "In case" a company folds, one would work as a part-time taxi-driver at night. "In case" one isnt good at piano, he/she would take up tap-dancing. "In case" one would be poor or go bankrupt tomorrow, he/she must grab every single free item he/she can find today. "In case" one doesnt get credit for a tiny role in the musical, he/she goes for every single audition for all the different roles. IN CASE, IN CASE, IN CASE... HAiz. I KNOW people would refute and say its more of EXPLORING and BRAOADENING the minds. Hell yeah i know that, but ponder about it, why do we actually suffer so much just to "explore"? Exploring is no longer the issue here. The issue now is on INSECURITY and UNCERTAINTY. People shoud learn to make a stand and be more confident about themselves and be self-assured about the things they do. Ok so let's get back to my story. I had the career talks and so i now hve a clearer mind of roughly how i want to lead my life when i grow up later. I want to work with the MEDIA. My interest now is to go to NTU and study in SCI( school of comm and info), specialising in public and promotional communication. Yeah that is my first choice. My second choice would be NBS (nanyang business school), specialising in marketing or human resource consulting. My third choice would be hmm maybe sch of business in SMU. LOL. Oh no, I'm ONLY 16, and im already thinking SO much.. lmao. I havent even got back my prelim results! haiz.. Im TOO far ahead.. *coming back down on earth* ok so umm before i go, a quote! First say to yourself what you would be; and then do what you have to do.

BAFFLED, BEFUDDLED, CONFUSED, DISORIENTATED.. That is how i feel right now. I was really astounded by the first talk, done by the principal of VJC. In a good way though. I never really thought that VJ would be SO exciting and thrilling. I used to be VERY skeptical and thought that everyone wanted to go there only for "fame" and "glory". I thought that people were MERELY stereotyping that VJ was a GOOD school. HAIZ i dont know why but i really used to be very "AGAINST" that school. Lol. I mean whenever people around me said "I wanna go VJ" or "My dream JC is VJ", I would give that "OMG ARE U SERIOUS" look , and say "Why does EVERYONE wants to go there? What's SO GOOD about it anyway?" HAIZ. I even set up the mentality of actually "boycotting" that school when i graduate. LMAO. But i guess i was proven wrong. Look at me now, im now all dazed and hopeless. After hearing the talk today, i was really really motivated to study there. I mean NOW i know why EVERYONE wants to go there. Seriously its not about the stereotype, but the school really offers so much that it makes you reconsider your decisions and ponder about what life would be like if you ACTUALLY study there. haiz. Now i'm back to square one. Really have to gather back my thoughts and opinions. I cant simply go around judging a school without having much research and knowledge about the school. haiz. I've learnt my lesson. Lol. Anyways, Ms Leong came back today to give us a talk. Well it was more of a PEP talk for me. I was really keyed up to listen to what she had to say. I reckoned that the talk was going to be FRUITFUL. And it SURE was. I mean her talk really woke me up. It smacked me straight in the face. I honestly didnt see it coming. Lol. She was so real, no strings attached. I mean she didnt come to "promote" her school, but she was there to really give us a wake up call, and to make us realise that there is actually so much more to know when it comes to making the right decisions. Lol, it may sound very cliche, but yeah, it sure worked for ME! Lol. Now i'm contemplating whether i should even go to JC or POLY. Ok let me lay out the plan I have SO FAR. If i can make it to Vjc ( god-willing) i want to take Arts (of course la, my sciences suck sia), perhaps lit, geo, maths, econs and theatre studies. when i complete 2 years there, i hope to go to NTU and apply for SCI ( sch of info comm ). yeah, FYI, its not IT but its more of like mass comm. yeah. Anyways, it sounds very AMBITIOUS though. haiz. If i go poly, i want to go to SP, and take Business & Media ( somewhat business and mass comm all rolled up into 1 ). yeah. and after 3 years there, i hope that i can continue and study at NTU (SCI). Lol, that is MY PLAN so far. HAIZ im in a DILEMMA man! oh wells. i'm praying so hard that my prelim results are of good and appropriate standard. Insya-Allah.. I CAN DO IT! lol.. anyways b4 i go another quote for u to chew on:
Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day.


okok.. i noe i noe.. i have to make a confession.. HAIZ.. I DIDNT DO ANY WORK YESTERDAY! omg.. so much for the beautiful awakening man.. okok so i got all LAZY and SLOTHFUL. yeah yeah.. go ahead hit me in the face.. *bangs head on the floor*... haiz.. i was online the WHOLE day sia.. as in literally the whole day.. i remembered being online in the morn at about 10 plus.. all the way to about hmm.. 2 i think.. and then i went online again in the evening all the way to nite at bout 11.40 i think.. haiz.. anyways.. i dont care i have to start today.. i'm planning to do some math today..yeah.. i HOPE i would actually bring myself to do it.. okok.. aisyah, be positive.. *breathes in and breathes out* ok.. so um.. enough bout my crappy stuff.. now, yesterday.. mazmo was so sweet she got me a picture of brendon.. lol so funny and cute sia.. ok see the pic up there?, yeah that's the one.. lmao.. so cute right? i loike alot man.. mazmo, if u're reading this, THANK YOU!.. appreciate it loads.. muakakaka.. anyways.. yeah now as alot of ppl noe, im so "INTO" P!ATD.. lolz.. i think sometimes my craze goes overboard! but wth.. im such an expressive person.. muakkakaak.. (yeah roight) .. btw.. tonight there's the sp idol grand finals.. oh gosh.. i have to make a complaint sia.. u noe wat?.. im damn pissed la. haiz.. did u ppl read the newpaper recently.. wells the tv guide rite, there was this column that showed a pic of hady and jon.. and omg. im damn pissed with the tagline.. oh gosh i cant exactly rmb wat the EXACT words were, but it was somewhat like this "can rocker jon leong be the sp idol this year?"
i was like wth?.. i mean im not trying to condemn any party here, but.. i mean.. the tagline was such a biased one.. i noe the press are making comparisons of HADY AND JON, and TAUFIK AND SLY.. and since sly the rocker didnt make it last year, it SEEMS that the rocker jon leong HAS to "make up" for it.. i mean seriously wth.. its a singing competition ppl.. hold on let me stress again, im not being prejudiced.. its just what my opinios are like.. ok back to the story, so umm, it seems that jon HAS to win this year.. haiz.. come la ppl.. be more open minded k?.. dont let these stupid remarks hinder u from making the right choice... (cliche man.. lol) im just stating facts ok.. lol.. anyways..b4 i go.. as usual i have a quote for u ppl to ponder about : The tendency of the casual mind is to pick out or stumble upon a sample which supports or defies its prejudices, and then to make it the representative of a whole class.

prelims out, O's in.. haiz.. such an APPROPRIATE way of putting things.. okok aisyah stop being all pessimistic and skeptical.. haiz.. so umm.. let's refresh.. haha.. prelims out, RAYA's coming!! haha.. oh no.. that's NOT good either.. damn excited for the festive season, but later forget about O's.. nono.. cannot be.. okie let's do this ONE more time.. prelims out, 1 final hurdle left to go.. yeah!.. okok.. so i got "the right" start.. yeap.. now i have to look at things with a more positive attitude.. yeah its all abt the attitude ppl.. haiz.. so umm..knowing that i didnt do SO well in my prelims, i HAVE to make a start NOW.. i mean not mug NOW. but like what mr yau said.. we cannot let the first week go to waste.. toop toop.. its thurs oledi.. so yeah.. i have to start to do some work today.. oh wells wth.. i havent even clean up my room.. i WAS SUPOSE to clean it up by yesterday i think.. haiz.. i have to paint my room.. but oh wells.. as ususal lethargy got over me.. and umm i'm damn cynical haiz. evrything i do i MAKE sure its worthwhile taking up my time.. oh gosh when did i ever become so calculative.. ergh.. oh yeah i picked up this quote: I SHALL NOT RUSH INTO A JOB WITHOUT HAVING A LIFETIME OF CONSIDERATION! lolz.. loike it?.. wells i SURE DO..
muakakaa.. anyway..beautiful awakening -stacie orrico- hmm so inspiring and stimulating.. lolz.. i have to make sure that i really work hard for my O's.. really really hard.. and really smart as well.. i mean, prelims was just like a normal TEST to me.. oh gosh.. wth happened to me. but yeah, prelims was never really seen as PRELIMS to me.. i just took it lightly.. wells not LIGHTLY but umm.. i guess the pressure didnt really sink in.. oh wells.. so umm.. this is my pivotal period.. man i cant believe im actually saying this.. its quite scary sometimes coz u noe that there're ppl looking up on u to do ur very best.. counting on u, doting on u.. and of course i dont ever wanna let them down. i dont wanna let MYSELF down.. lolz.. so emo sia. anyway, yeah i guess i have to make MY beautiful awakening.. i have to.. hmm wells.. one thing that i can really do now is to PRAY. i hope that everything works out fine.. the way i plan, the way my family plans.. so yeah.. god willing.. i can do it.. umm. b4 i go i got another quote: There is no security on this earth. Only opportunity. ponder over it yeah? peace out peeps..



heyheyhey.. oh gosh its been SO long since i last updated my blog.. wells anyways.. ppl noe me.. im the most fickle-minded gal on earth.. haiz that's me.. i cant do anything bout it. anyways im currently attached to brendon urie. yeah.. see the pic up there?. yeah that's him alrite.. okok.. u may ask.. wat happened to zac efron?.. haiz well i duno wat ACTUALLY happened.. one moment we were all happy and smiling and the next, we're just not.. haiz.. well i guess everyone has his ups and down.. its a GOOD thing that brendon came to the scene.. he REALLY helped me alot.. u noe getting over zac and all.. brendon's a good guy.. he made me realise that boys will always be boys.. anyways.. yeah.. him and i, we're attached now. in the midst of consoling and all that shite.. he popped THE qn.. no no.. not "WILL U MARRY ME?" but..."will u be MY steady?"... it was so sweet.. u should have seen it.. anyways... i got myself a hair straightener today.. haiz after all the prelim papers i guess i really needed to treat myself with something nice.. haha. so umm.. im so excited to try it out later.. hope it actually works.. muakaka.. so umm i guess that's it for now.. peace out peepz.. muackz

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