G!amorous

confused me

Sunday, September 24, 2006 @ 10:55 PM

BAFFLED, BEFUDDLED, CONFUSED, DISORIENTATED.. That is how i feel right now. I was really astounded by the first talk, done by the principal of VJC. In a good way though. I never really thought that VJ would be SO exciting and thrilling. I used to be VERY skeptical and thought that everyone wanted to go there only for "fame" and "glory". I thought that people were MERELY stereotyping that VJ was a GOOD school. HAIZ i dont know why but i really used to be very "AGAINST" that school. Lol. I mean whenever people around me said "I wanna go VJ" or "My dream JC is VJ", I would give that "OMG ARE U SERIOUS" look , and say "Why does EVERYONE wants to go there? What's SO GOOD about it anyway?" HAIZ. I even set up the mentality of actually "boycotting" that school when i graduate. LMAO. But i guess i was proven wrong. Look at me now, im now all dazed and hopeless. After hearing the talk today, i was really really motivated to study there. I mean NOW i know why EVERYONE wants to go there. Seriously its not about the stereotype, but the school really offers so much that it makes you reconsider your decisions and ponder about what life would be like if you ACTUALLY study there. haiz. Now i'm back to square one. Really have to gather back my thoughts and opinions. I cant simply go around judging a school without having much research and knowledge about the school. haiz. I've learnt my lesson. Lol. Anyways, Ms Leong came back today to give us a talk. Well it was more of a PEP talk for me. I was really keyed up to listen to what she had to say. I reckoned that the talk was going to be FRUITFUL. And it SURE was. I mean her talk really woke me up. It smacked me straight in the face. I honestly didnt see it coming. Lol. She was so real, no strings attached. I mean she didnt come to "promote" her school, but she was there to really give us a wake up call, and to make us realise that there is actually so much more to know when it comes to making the right decisions. Lol, it may sound very cliche, but yeah, it sure worked for ME! Lol. Now i'm contemplating whether i should even go to JC or POLY. Ok let me lay out the plan I have SO FAR. If i can make it to Vjc ( god-willing) i want to take Arts (of course la, my sciences suck sia), perhaps lit, geo, maths, econs and theatre studies. when i complete 2 years there, i hope to go to NTU and apply for SCI ( sch of info comm ). yeah, FYI, its not IT but its more of like mass comm. yeah. Anyways, it sounds very AMBITIOUS though. haiz. If i go poly, i want to go to SP, and take Business & Media ( somewhat business and mass comm all rolled up into 1 ). yeah. and after 3 years there, i hope that i can continue and study at NTU (SCI). Lol, that is MY PLAN so far. HAIZ im in a DILEMMA man! oh wells. i'm praying so hard that my prelim results are of good and appropriate standard. Insya-Allah.. I CAN DO IT! lol.. anyways b4 i go another quote for u to chew on:
Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day.