G!amorous

nothing to do

Thursday, November 30, 2006 @ 12:51 AM

I dont know why but the after-Os effect is REALLY sinking in. Its not that i loathe holidays or anything like that, but doing NOTHING can be quite galling. A pretty BLEAK and DULL day i guess. At first im on the comp, and the next moment im glued to the tv, but after awhile i find myself on the comp yet again, coz there's really nothing much to do at home. Oh no, i never thought i would go through this coz I THOUGHT i had my holidays all PLANNED out. But apparently the decision to quit my job really sets the holiday mood to be quite DREARY and MONOTONOUS. Oh no i cant blame on that decision to quit, nor can i blame it on the holidays. Its just that i feel kinda "lost" whenever i have nothing to do. And its definitely aint the nicest feeling on earth. LOL. I feel ASTRAY and MISPLACED coz it seems like my priorities and goals are no longer constricted, for NOW of course. The liberty i have now seemed to hold no purpose. ERGH. I thought holidays would mean hanging out with friends EVERY single day, doing an activity at least once a day, and just be HAPPY u know. I thought everything would just fall into place like how i hoped and imagined it would before Os ended. But i guess, everyone has their own life to live, and i've got mine to fill. I cant possibly be selfish, so being neutral me, i know that people are busy, i just let them be, and let me be. I'll figure out soon what i want to do to fill up my time. But for now, i guess i'll just rot at home again, and see myselfing marking time, waiting for the clock to tick, and hope for a better day tomorrow. Just for the record, I have been rotting for 2 LONG days. Yeah. Oh gosh, i sound very PATHETIC, and so lifeless. But dont fret, i'll be filling up my weekend soon. I'll be heading to Jb for a day. Eat and shop i guess. And then on sunday i'll be chilling out with Lisa again. LOL. alright then, i feel MUCH better after blogging today. LOL, it kills time!! Yeah, alright then, gotta go.. makan time. wakaka.

Signing out:::: URIE