G!amorous

SELF ANALYSIS

Friday, November 03, 2006 @ 8:18 AM

Hey, i don't know why but i've been doing ALOT of self-analysis lately. I'm pretty sure its good to do some reality checks once in a while. But it seems that i'm just being abit too critical and emotional about myself. This week, things didnt go so well. Life's been pretty rocky for me. Pondering about friendships, love-life, studies, home, my behaviour, my weight, my family. Haiz, basically i've been thinking about my whole life of late. Omg, i think im beginning to sound more and more like Krishna. OH NO! hahaha. Anyways, i've come to a conclusion that i'm a real NEUTRAL person. ( as mentioned by my best fren.. u noe who u are :P) You can call it good and you can call it bad. Hey im just being "neutral", i don't mind what you'd say about me. So yeah, i'm the most NEUTRAL gal on earth (i think). Frankly, i don't think it's something to be REALLY proud of. I may appear aloof and distant to other people. But i'm not. Being a people-pleaser i tend to AGREE with everything and CONFORM to my surroundings. And you can see this through my open-mindedness, and my "hey i'm not judging you" character. HOWEVER, being detached and impartial doesnt mean i dont have feelings at all. I mean, i may not literally showcase my emotions out in the open, but i still do have my "struggles" deep down inside. And one more thing, being neutral is definitely not an easy thing. People make mistakes and i do have my flaws. I do have my moments, and i certainly do have IMPERFECTIONS. All i'm trying to say is that i feel that being me, i have to live up to these expectations that are indirectly set for me along the way as i grow up. And believe me it can quite demanding at times. So yeah, i feel quite tired and drained sometimes. So i just wanna apologise to all my frens and the ppl around me for all the my wrong-doings and my imperfections.. Ok dats it gotta go.